My answer was both yes and no which needs some explaining. The answer yes is because 1994 was a year I made the worst decision of my life and with that decision has come such devastation in the lives of so many loved ones, but especially my daughter’s. There is no reversing the damage caused nor that it continues to cause in my life and probably still her life. You see, I would not know because there is no relationship between us any longer and has not been for many years. I still cry in private and the pain runs deeper than I can describe. I carry on with a pain almost unbearable at times and just sit and cry. There is my answer yes. If I could delete an age or time in my life, 1994 would vanish.
The answer is no because if 1994 had been deleted from my life, I would not have met my best friend and soul mate. The man who completes me and I don’t use the term completes me loosely. He completely completes me. To the point that at times and many times I have put him above God. Not anymore, but many of the 25 years we have been together I did do that. So, there you have it. 1994 was a double edged sword and garners the answer both yes and no.
Don’t judge me, just try and understand how one year or time in your life can bring both a yes and no response to the question asked.
When God Speaks 
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