When God Speaks

My mind can be my worst enemy. It is like the Energizer Bunny where it goes and goes and goes. So much so that I cannot fall asleep at night. My mind will not shut off.

It goes from worrying to thinking about the to do list to something I may have forgotten to my reactions that day to others and on and on. You get the picture. It makes me crazy and stressed out.

As far back as I can remember I have always been this way. I do get a lot done because of it, but where is the fun in life we should enjoy? Rarely does fun get to show it’s face because my mind says there are more pressing matters to deal with so I stay stressed and fearful. Always climbing, but never arriving. How sad.

How does one change this when an entire lifetime has been trained to be this way? Self help books? No, because what works for one may not work for another. Counseling? No, counseling just allows me to say out loud what is already going on in my head which makes it worse because now I have voiced the issues and thought of more to add to my to do list. Medications? No, this just makes me goofy or leaves me with a big hangover the following day. Or prolongs the problem by blocking it. But when it comes back it comes with a vengeance. Ignoring the list? This cannot happen. So, what is the answer?

God. He is the only answer where all can benefit from Him. He is amazing in how He works. Always working behind the scenes with little recognition but the only One that can shut my mind off and allow me to rest. His answer is the same to all who struggle with this problem. He says, ‘Come to Me all you who are weary and heavy-laden and I will give you rest’, yet He speaks to each differently. Speaking to us where we can relate. He created us so He knows how we work. He is the only One who can give the same answer, but make it mean something different to each.

There are times when I turn to Him last. Why? I guess I think I can figure it out or my mind is spinning so fast to stop and think is not an option. I want to make Him the only option and I will. Practice makes perfect. The more time I spend with Him the less my mind spins. You cannot spend time with Him and hold on to stress, worry and fear. This would be an oxymoron.

Maybe I need to pin a piece of paper above my bed with a note attached that reads ‘Talk to God’. In fact, I will do just that.