Wow, we made it. I never thought we would get this far, but I am so glad we did. My only regret is spending wasted time worrying if we would make it. That time could have been better used enjoying the moment and those in it. Always afraid when there was nothing to be afraid of seemed to be our life mantra.
Looking back, I wish we had looked for the good in every situation instead of moaning about the bad. The truth is that in every situation we had a choice. We could look for the good and the good was there somewhere, or we could look for the bad and the bad, too was always there. So, being the captain of our own ship, we made the choice. It may not have seemed as if there was a choice of finding good or bad, but it always is and we must strive to find good. Good brings joy, peace, and a carefree attitude. How I wish we had lived that more, but we can still look for the good and the good is we made it to 100 and for the most part healthy. Yay!!
I want to share a few things with you that I should have shared before now, but better late than never, right? First, you are a wonderful person and most know this. I know at times you beat yourself up over things. That is the perfectionist in you. All said, you’ve done well considering the obstacles you had to overcome. So, hold that head high and know I am rooting for you. Was then and will forever.
Another thing I see is how giving you are with everything. That is something to be proud of. Not everyone is giving so that is a big plus. You are a loyal person as well. Yes, I know you made mistakes but we all do. You took great care of both your parents when they were dying. No one else in the family stepped up. Just you & your husband. And you did this without batting an eye or complaining. Awesome. That says, loyal if nothing else does. You were married twice and both were long hauls, but the last one was the winner. What was it, over 30 years? Yes, I believe it was and you hung in there through thick and thin. What is really impressive is you never considered anything less. You didn’t consider what others might whisper behind your back being that it was an interracial marriage in Alabama. You listened to your heart and overcame this, too. Again, speaks volumes.
I saw that you were always quick to forgive even when people hurt you over and over. How you did this for some is beyond me, but it was the right thing to do. You would always look at yourself and realize you also had need of grace at times so how could you not extend the same to others. You told me, ‘Where much is given, much will be required’. You believed that this applied to grace as well, not just stuff. So, you gave it and gave it a lot. I am quite sure you will receive a jewel in your crown for that one.
But, the main thing I was in awe of was your heart for God. You didn’t attend church much, but knowing your heart was all about God was living proof of your relationship with Him. Rituals or routine things was not your style and I am so glad because anyone can look the part, but what it all boils down to is the heart. The heart has the relationship with Him, not the actions. Again, you did well. Bravo!!
Well, you are 100 today and I wouldn’t want to live life with anyone else. Think we can conquer 200? Just kidding.
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