My name means ‘honeybee’ and I find that very fitting. Bees are workers except the queen and workers are always busy. That is me to the ‘t’. I am always busy, never relaxing. I find it hard to relax because my mind is constantly going, finding something to do or get done. I do not like that I am this way. It causes unneeded stress at times for myself and those close to me. I think if I am busy then everyone should be busy. The problem is I need to learn to relax, but as hard as I may try relaxation always eludes me.
I have always been this way and teaching an old dog new tricks, well you get the picture. It usually does not happen. My constant busyness causes friction in relationships, especially with my spouse. Another word that describes me would be ‘screamer’. There are times and more than I want to admit that I hurl insults at my husband for my own issues of constant busyness. If I feel overwhelmed and that is often I become upset that I am carrying the majority of the tasks and my mouth goes ballistic. Even though the tasks may not be overdue I want them done already. So, my issue becomes his issue and it is not pretty. How he stays with me is beyond me, but thank God he does.
I do aplogize sometimes, but words cut deep and can never be retracted. So, for those of you out there that can relate to my quandary please take note that when you are always busy you can never enjoy the moments in life that are amazing and meant for those who can relax and just chill.
When God Speaks 
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