Three wishes, huh? Let me think carefully on this one. There are so many things I might like, but the ‘do-overs’ are what I would pick. Those things in life where I wish I had chosen differently are the ones that haunt me most. So, if I could have an opportunity to right these wrongs I would jump at the chance.
The do-overs I would wish for would be first the chance to raise my daughter. It sounds bad and it is that a mother would abandon her child for a chance to be with this guy she knew at age 14. So many times I have cried over this decision. It literally makes me sick when I think about it and the worst part is there is no reason this should ever have happened, yet it did. So, to go back in time and change that decision would be first on my wish list. I would use all three wishes just for this one. The past cannot be undone and that is the saddest part of all. How do you explain to your child, now an adult, why you chose to leave? You cannot because there is no good reason for such a horrible decision. So, you live with it and every day you are reminded of it in some way and the pain never goes away. For neither you nor your child.
Next wish would again be a do-over. This one doesn’t hurt as much, but pain does accompany it. I would wish I had shown my parents how much they meant to me more. I would wish I could take away some things I heaped upon them causing them great pain I’m sure. The stress and worry I caused them had to be great. I’m sorry and if I could take them back, I would in a New York minute.
The last wish would be that I lived a life following and seeking the Lord. This wish would be number 1 because if I had done this the other 2 wishes would never needed wished for because you cannot seek and follow God while abandoning your child or causing grief to your parents. It just cannot happen. I would be a much better person leaving a great mark behind. So, this wish being first would leave me 2 more. These 2 more wishes I would donate to another person. My life would have been much better and to those around me as well.
The old saying of be careful what you wish for because you might just get it never applies to this kind of wishing. This kind of wishing is reflecting on the past and righting wrongs and can never be regretted. There is nothing at all to be careful about when you can make something beautiful out of things that haunt your daily life.
I wish I may, I wish I might have the wish I need the most.
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