Gifts come in different shapes and sizes and they come by different avenues. The most wonderful gift I’ve ever received is the love of a man. Not just any man, but the love from my husband who showered me with love. I never knew what real love was until he came into my life. He didn’t shower me with gifts of material value, but gifts only needed the most. He did give gifts of material means as well, but those gifts most can give. The gifts he gave were security, feelings of safety, feelings of being adored beyond reason. Feelings of not wanting to be anywhere else but with him. A love that satisfied completely in every area. These are the most treasured gifts ever received and always remembered.
I didn’t appreciate what I had at times. I didn’t believe that this love was not promised forever and that any time it could be gone. In a flash, in a time not expected. Then, it happened. No warning, no advanced preparedness, no nothing. Just gone. Taken one ordinary morning and the well of sorrow filled me rapidly, completely, and the pain is almost too much to handle.
I have never in my life hurt like this. It is deep, shattering and no end in sight. He passed just 5 days ago and life as I knew it will never be the same. Why did I not say things I should have, do things I knew to and show how much I appreciated him? The answers to these questions matter not anymore. My time has passed to do these and I will forever have a hole in my heart that could have been filled with a few short words and gestures. Oh, how sad I am. How deep the regret I will carry for the rest of eternity. If given one wish I know what I would ask for, but this is only fantasy thinking. When the gift is taken it is taken forever.
My gift to you since I can no longer give it to him is this: When the love of your life walks in, hold on tightly, love with everything inside, show him your appreciation in all things and words he gives you. And, most of all remember there is no guarantees on how long this gift will be here. Let there be no regrets when that time comes.
When God Speaks 
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