The next six months of facing challenges are easy compared to the next six days. My rock, the man I adored was taken from me suddenly. Without warning, without planning, without anything at all, he was gone. In the blink of an eye, I was alone. Completely by myself I now face tomorrow’s without him.
The fear that races through me is nothing compared to the loneliness I feel if feelings can even be felt right now. Probably not if ever will. Imagine life a void full of darkness with no directions to guide you on. That is the place I’m doomed to presently, at least for now if not eternity. The blackness is suffocating. Every breath catches in my throat and if not for the tears no life would exist within. How does one continue on with the emptiness so vast? The answer to that and so many more questions have me reeling to the point of exhaustion yet I continue on. Nothing I touch, nothing I see, nothing I hear takes the place of my loss. Step by step I carefully move but the bottom falling out is sure to be soon. How, How, How do I go on with the love of my life not holding my hand? The question remains, but the answer escapes me and the rest of my life lays out before me. Thank you my love for the time that you gave me for never another will take your place.
When God Speaks 
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