If I could be a character from a book or show, I would pick Samantha Steven’s from TV show Bewitched. The last couple months have been the hardest of my life. My wonderful best friend and husband of 27 years passed away suddenly. No warning, no preparation, no anything _ just one minute he was there and the next gone. My world collapsed and will never be the same. I don’t have answers as to why though I’ve asked God so many times even begging Him to let him come back. All to no avail, of course. I didn’t get mad at God as I’ve heard so many others say. I don’t know why, but I am glad I didn’t. I realize he is in a much better place and I will see him again, but the pain of losing him is at times unbearable. Have you ever felt alone? Totally alone? Like no one understands you or the pain you feel? How could they unless they have experienced it as well?
I picked Samantha Steven’s as the character I would like to be because she was a good witch that could make things happen just by twitching her nose. You should know why I chose her, but if not I will explain.
If I were her I could have my husband back and this pain I carry would not exist. If I could have only one wish it would be that, hands down. My world would be right again. As you know this is not possible and God knows the answers to my questions regardless if He chooses to share them with me. God is good and though it feels like He is not at times, I realize these are only feelings and He knows best. I will trust Him that He sees ahead and nothing but good comes from Him. So, whatever the reason my husband passed away suddenly it must be for the good. Bar nothing.
I went along with the question asked all the while knowing this is impossible. It didn’t make me feel better even for a second. Some pain we must walk through and out. This is one of those times for me and the days and nights seem endless.
Yes, I trust God and His ways. I know in the end all will go well. That is what keeps me going. He knows best.
When God Speaks 
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