When God Speaks

As I sit and think of all the wonderful times I had with my husband I feel so much sorrow. He and I were together for 27 years or close to it and rarely did we argue. I have never had nor saw a relationship like ours. We were each others counterpart. Never was the word separated much less divorce uttered from our lips. We knew somehow deep down that we were meant to be together forever.
So, why did forever end February 7th of this year? I have thought about the answer to that over and over to no avail. I am overcome with sorrow and the pain too deep to describe. My forever ended way before I was ready. I will never be the same.
With that said I shouldn’t ever be the same. There is no one that can ever take his place and I don’t want anyone to take his place. He was a gift from God to me and sadly I am just realizing that. I never told him that because I just didn’t think my better half would be taken so soon. Yet, here I am only half a person.
All the whys in the world won’t bring him back to me, but oh how I wish they would. In a New York minute I would give everything I have for him to be here with me. I look forward to seeing him again one day and wonder if he will hold my hand when that day comes. Will he remember me? Will he still love me? Can we be together in heaven as on earth? Oh, the joy I would have if so.
God blessed me with him for 27 years of the best times of my life. The day forever ended I can only pray will be given back one day.