The time I realized I was stronger than I thought was a couple months after my best friend and husband passed suddenly. Those first couple months were the hardest times I ever faced. I cried constantly, my heart literally ached and I thought it would never end. In fact, I wasn’t sure I wanted it to end. My life was forever changed and I was at a complete loss of all things.
About four months later I realized I wasn’t crying everyday. I still have times where my mind goes back in time and I just weep. But, not all the time. I had to learn how to function on my own without help or support from anyone other than my heavenly Father. I leaned hard on Him and He got me through. I’m not finished by a long shot. With no insurance, credit card debt over the top and only my one little SS check monthly things are not easy, but I’m learning how to navigate life alone and it is making me stronger. Do I want to do this? Do I want to be stronger? Absolutely not, but we don’t get to pick the cards we are given. We just have to play what we are dealt the best that we can and that makes us stronger whether we like it or not. There is a saying, ‘Hindsight is 20/20’ and I agree. When I look back over the last few months I understand some things that at the time I did not and this makes us wiser. Our faith gets a boost that we need to carry for a time when things look hopeless. This makes us resilient.
In concluding this blog, I must admit the moment I realized I was stronger than I thought was when all these things culminated and this made me hopeful.
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